wintering

Hi all-- It has been several months since I tried to get back on the wagon of writing and posting. I finally admit, I couldn't do it in the way I had hoped. Trying to get work done while my little peanut sleeps is proving to be more difficult for my brain than I thought. Breastfeeding and managing 80% of her daily care just wipes me out, and I often sit down after she goes to sleep and don't know what to do next. I assumed that my personal hobbies like this blog or my professional responsibilities like practicing or writing were on a long hold. 

I didn't (and still don't) know how to balance things very well. It is one of the greatest mainstays of my continuous growing up: people have always commented that I pursue too many activities in excess to the detriment of quality and my own sanity and well-rested sense of health. 

But then, I ran across several poems recently, and I wanted to keep them in a place were I could come back to them. I had also started a collection other things I wanted to remember by copying into a Word document. I am starting to see a shift in the patterns of my interior life that I want to bring back here. Just a fair warning: the type of content might not be the same as what I have been posting for the last decade. 

I find it interesting that this started on the Winter Solstice, the longest day of the year, and the beginning of one of my favorite times of the year, die Tagen zwischen den Jahren. I am hoping this shift sticks even if I cannot promise it. 

All I can say is "nur wer sich wandelt bleibt mit mir verwandt." I am grateful for the capacity to develop and to change. 

In the meantime, may you live fully into this dark, quiet time zwischen den Jahren.