when I grow up... future fridays

I have had this early and seemingly unending midlife crisis about my career swirling in the back of my mind, not quite satisfied with the current conditions of my musical self, but so incredibly grateful for stable employment. It has been exacerbated by the pandemic and fresh parenthood. This phase keeps making me question my motivations and aspirations in so many different ways, and I catch myself wondering what I really want when I grow up. I am not sure I will ever feel completely grown up. And truthfully, there is a big part of me that hopes I won't feel that way. 

This simple anecdote from an educator friend was the catalyst for that in today's edition of what da heck am I doing with my life, and what do I really want for our little family? 

A few years ago I was talking with a group of very young students about what they wanted to be when they grew up. One boy was very thoughtful and spoke last. He said ‘I don’t think I am good at many things but when I grow up I want to be a good friend’. It was so touching and this picture made me remember that child who will now be a grown up. I am sure he is good at many things and best of all a good friend.

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