learning

Gabes, in response to your "this is now" purpose:
spoken by a young conductor of Concertgebouw,
Daniel Harding

Mr. Harding, for his part, believes he has matured in recent years.

“I think that I’ve been learning — these are things that take a lifetime to learn — how to enjoy what’s different about each situation,” he said. “Instead of ‘I wish this were like this.’”

via {ny times}